Sorry

Summary: Dan knew that he was at fault, but he would never apologise. After all, his pride was always in the way. Things eventually got heated between him and Phil, resulting in hurtful comments made.

Genre: Hurt, fluff at the end

Note: Italics means it’s Dan’s thoughts.

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Dan was never one to apologise. He knew he was at fault. He knew that he was wrong for leaving the stove unattended. And he knew he was supposed to apologise to a fuming Phil standing in front of him.

But yet, strangely enough, he couldn’t.

“Dan! It was so irresponsible of you to just leave the stove on while you went to sleep!”

“Well, I didn’t intend to sleep. I just kind of…dozed off.”

“Stop giving excuses! What would have happened if I didn’t come home in time? You could have been burnt to death!”

“Jesus Christ, Phil, you don’t have to be so dramatic.” Dan rolled his eyes. It was so typical of Phil to over-exaggerate everything.

“That’s so you. You are always so irresponsible and you never do anything right!” Dan couldn’t believe his ears. The usually calm and sweet Phil was pointing out all his faults.

“Oh yeah, what about yourself? You’re so clumsy and weak, if I wasn’t here for you, you would have died in some freak accident a long time ago! You’re so great, aren’t you? Fine, I’ll show you that I don’t need you to survive!”

Before he knew it, he had already spat out the hurtful words into Phil’s face. Hurt flashed on Phil’s face.

“You don’t need me?” He whispered, with tears threatening to fall from his eyes.

“Phil, that’s not what I mean-” Dan reached his hand out to comfort Phil but the latter pulled back.

“No, that’s exactly what you mea! You’re all grown up now, you don’t need me anymore!”

“Phil, please, listen to me-”

“No! Get out! I don’t want to see you ever again!” Phil turned his back on Dan as he pointed to the door.

In his heart, he knew he was wrong. He knew that he had to apologise. But his pride wouldn’t allow him to.

“Fine.” Dan grabbed his wallet and phone as he walked out.

The moment he stepped out into the street, he regretted his decision. The icy cold wind of the London air caused him to shiver and sneeze as he tried to desperately keep himself warm by wrapping his arms around him.

“Fuck!” How he wished he never fought with Phil. He would still have been warm and comfy, probably snuggling up beside Phil now.

Now, what am I supposed to do?

You could go back and apologise to Phil. He’s not a petty person, he’ll probably forgive you.

It’s his fault for starting the fight first!

Well, but he was stating the truth right? Plus you were the one who hurt him!

“But…there’s no way I’m going back so soon!” Dan sighed to himself as he settled onto a park bench. Looking at his phone, he gasped as he noticed there were 50 missed calls and texts.

“Dan, where are you? You didn’t bring your jacket…and I know it’s cold outside.”

“Dan, I’m so sorry. Please come back okay?”

“Dan, I miss you already. Please, I’m begging you, just come back alright? I’ll change, I promise!”

“Dan, please don’t ignore me. Come back!”

“Dan, if you’re reading this, just know that I am very sorry for everything. I promise you that I will never ever do that again. Just…just come home soon okay? Or reply me at least so that I know you are safe.”

Tears slowly pooled in Dan’s eyes as he read each and every one of the messages. Guilt welled up inside him as he slowly got up from the bench, trudging himself home. He couldn’t believe that Phil actually blamed himself for what happened.

“Spork.” Dan muttered softly under his breath as he hesitated at the front door of their apartment.

What should I say?

“Fuck it, what’s the worst that can happen?” He opened the door in one swift motion and was immediately tackled to the ground.

“Dan! You’re back! I’m so sorry, please forgive me! Please don’t ever leave me alone again!” Phil rambled on as he was a sobbing mess. As Dan slowly registered what was going on, he rubbed circles on Phil’s back.

“You spork, why are you saying sorry? It was my fault and I know I was wrong for being so irresponsible and defensive and terrible and horrible and-” Dan’s rambling was cut off by a passionate kiss from Phil.

“Mmph…Phil…I just wanted to say that I’m sorry.”

“I know and it’s okay. Because I forgive you for everything.” Dan snuggled himself closer to Phil as he smiled to himself.

“Let’s cuddle in bed okay? I’m freezing right now.” Dan whined and Phil let out a loud laugh.

“Okay bear. Let’s go.” Phil carried Dan up as the younger man snuggled even closer to him.

“I love you, bear.” Not hearing any reply, Phil looked down only to see that Dan had fallen asleep. Chuckling to himself, Phil tried to climb up the steps as softly as possibly. Placing Dan on the bed, he covered both of them with the duvet and kissed Dan.

“Goodnight bear.”

Being ill isn’t as bad as it seems

Summary: Dan was sick but decided not to tell Phil as he didn’t want Phil to worry about him. In the end, Dan fainted at a Youtube panel.

Genre: hurt/comfort, slight fluff at the end

Note: this is my first phan fanfiction so comments are well appreciated! 😀

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Dan woke up to a throbbing headache. “F-fuck!” The bright sunlight streaming in from the windows just made it worse.

“Dan, wake up! We have to meet the others at 8!” Phil shouted from the toilet.

“I’m up,” Dan groaned as he sat up. Picking up his phone, he scrolled through the social media sites. Not being in the mood to reply to anyone’s tweets, Dan threw his phone aside and pulled the duvet across his head.

Wait. What is today’s date?

Dan suddenly sat upright again, causing a wave of nausea to sweep across him. Clutching his head in his hands, he winced as the throbbing in his head intensified. Grabbing his phone, he quickly looked at the screen.

21st October 2015

Shit. Not today.

“Dan, are you awake yet?” Phil walked out of the shower, towel wrapped around his body. He immediately rushed over to Dan’s side as soon as they made eye contact.

“Dan, are you alright? You don’t look so good,” Phil asked, with eyes filled with worry and concern.

“I-I’m fine.” Dan croaked, trying to stand up. He cursed to himself as he stumbled on his own feet.

“Woah woah, slow down! I don’t think you’re fine, Dan. Let’s just cancel our activities for today so that you can rest well.” Phil grabbed Dan before the latter fell.

Dan shook his head slowly. “Phil, I’m fine. C’mon, the fans are all waiting for us.” Dan shuffled himself to the toilet to freshen up.

Phil huffed in annoyance as he leaned against the toilet door. “Dan, I know you’re not fine. Vidcon can wait. I’m calling Louise to-”

“I’m fine!” Dan shouted. Phil stared at him, shocked. Feeling slightly guilty, Dan turned to look at his reflection once more. “Honestly, Phil, I’m fine. Don’t worry about me.” He assured the older man.

“Fine, but tell me if you feel sick okay?” Phil patted Dan’s back as the latter nodded before getting ready for the panel.

Looking at his own reflection, Dan got a slight shock. His face was unusually pale and his dark eye circles were more obvious than ever.

I look like shit.

“Hurry Dan! We are kind of late!” Upon hearing Phil’s voice, Dan panicked.

Well, nothing a little concealer can’t do. I’ll just have to borrow it from Louise later. Dan gave himself a mental note before brushing his fringe neatly to the side.

“I’m done!”

“C’mon then! We are so late!” Phil quickly locked the hotel room and the duo ran towards the meeting location.

Unfortunately for Dan, the running made his nausea worse. To make it even worse, as he entered the lift, he suddenly became dizzy and his legs gave up on him.

“Dan!” Luckily, Phil caught him in time before Dan hit his head against the wall. “Daniel, we are going back right now. You’re sick and you need to rest.” Phil commanded authoritatively.

Protesting, Dan pulled himself up. “I’ll be okay, I promise. Now, didn’t you say we were late?”

Sighing, Phil helped Dan up to his feet. Spotting the group of Youtubers at the hotel lobby, Phil immediately waved wildly.

“I see them! C’mon let’s go!” Phil jumped excitedly as he dragged Dan along with him.

“Hey guys! Sorry we are late, Dan didn’t wanna wake up this morning.” Phil greeted everyone chirpily. Dan rolled his eyes and was about the make a snide comment when he spotted Louise from the corner of his eye. Excusing himself, he made his way over as quickly as possible.

“Louise!”

“Hey Dan! Wow, what happened to you? You look so pale!” Louise gasped as she surveyed Dan’s face.

“I’m fine, really. Could you just lend me your concealer?”

“Daniel, are you sick? Cos I’m telling Phil this very moment to-”

“Jesus Christ, I’m fine okay? Just lend me the bloody concealer and don’t tell Phil where I went.” Dan was sick and tired of everyone asking him the same questions. Couldn’t they tell that Vidcon and the fans meant a lot to him?

It’s just a couple of hours. You can do this! Dan quickly dapped some concealer under his eyes before heading out.

As the group was ushered backstage, Dan’s headache got worse and his vision started getting blurry. Grabbing onto the thing nearest to him (which was Phil’s arm), he closed his eyes as his head throbbed mercilessly.

“Dan, what’s wrong?” Phil turned him around, his voice was full of concern. “Do you want to sit down and rest?”

You stupid spork, now you’ve made Phil worried!

Trying to put up a front, Dan forced a smile. “I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about me.”

“So now, let us invite your favourite British Youtubers: Zoella, Sprinkleofglitter, Danisnotonfire, AmazingPhil, Pointlessblog, ThatcherJoe and Marcus Butler!”

Dan groaned as Phil pulled him up. “You’re sure you’ll be fine?” Phil patted Dan’s arm as they walked on stage. Dan nodded quickly as they heard the cheers and screams of hundreds and thousands of fans.

Dan immediately smiled and waved enthusiastically. This was the best part of these Youtube events – the fans. I’m not going to let some stupid illness get to me!

However, as the panel dragged on, Dan could feel himself losing focus. His eyelids were closing and no matter how hard he fought, he just couldn’t keep them open…

“Dan! Hello, Dan? Are you there?” His eyes snapped wide open as he looked around confused.

“W-what?”

“It’s your turn to answer! We are all sharing about the reasons we started our Youtube channels.” Marcus, who was sitting beside Dan, handed him the microphone.

“Oh, okay. Sorry, I spaced out.” Dan mumbled incoherently as he stood up. The sudden motion caused him to feel dizzy again as he stumbled. The bright flashing lights and the loud screams from the fans were definitely not helping.

He couldn’t remember anything. The last thing he saw was Phil’s frantic expression before he blacked out.

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“Dan?”

Who’s that? What’s that thing beeping?

Dan tried to move but every single muscle on his body just would not obey him. He squinted as the bright lights above shone directly into his eyes.

“P-Phil?” His voice came out as a whisper but Phil heard it anyway. Dropping the book in his hands, Phil rushed over to the younger’s side.

“Dan! You’re finally awake! You’ve been asleep for over 5 hours.” Phil gently helped Dan sit up.

“W-wait, what? 5 hours? What about the panel?” Dan panicked as he tried to get off the bed. “Phil, we have to go back!” Trying to stand up, Dan ended up stumbling and falling as he lost his balance.

“Dan, don’t worry, the panel is over. You fainted halfway through the panel and we’re now at the hospital. I’ll deal with everything okay? Just don’t worry and rest well.” Phil carried Dan up onto the bed and kissed his forehead. “Now, just focus on recovering. The doctor said you had a fever that led to the headache and the fainting.”

“You’re not mad?” Dan asked quietly.

Phil sighed as he hugged his lover. “Of course I’m mad. How could you not tell me you were sick? Did you know how worried I was when you collapsed on stage?” Tears welled up in those blue eyes and Dan felt his heart ache.

“I’m sorry, I just didn’t want you to worry about me.” Dan wiped the tears away. “Forgive me?”

“Just don’t ever do that to me ever again okay? I don’t wanna lose you.” Dan sighed contentedly as Phil cuddled up with him on the small hospital bed.

“Stay?” Dan could feel his eyes closing as Phil stroked his hair gently.

“For as long as you want me to. Now, rest well. I love you.” As Dan closed his eyes, he smiled to himself.

I love you too.

Hello!

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I write fanfiction and post them here – the pairings that I will write are mainly Phan, Yunjae or DB5K. 🙂

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